Running

“I miss you” the text read
And I left you on read
It’s been 3 days since I last exchange with you and 1 week since our passion as you would say
I’m scared of lonely and I’m scared of letting you in..
Does that make any sense
I feel as though our existence for one another is inevitably destined
But what i saw i cant unsee
The Sookie bitch hanging on your every word.
Do you have a preference i mean are you really color struck to the point you disregard all of this Eumelanin in your face.
I’m so possessive
I just want you to come and make love to me, grab me by my throat and push your love inside.
Make me scream your name until I cum all over your dick.
I want you in more ways than one.
What did you do to me? You had me way before the physical
I toy with the that thought all the time
Obsessed actually
That you’re a past life love that has caught up with me
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Destined to be.
You know me
Is that why your consistency and constant reassurance has engulf my very soul.
Is this what it really means to have a soul mate?
Laying on your chest I find peace.
You make me forget everything
You’re a reminder of what can be if I allow it
We all have a past
And you share some with me

I was asked, what is the worse thing to endure?.

Losing yourself.. I’ve experienced loving someone so deeply that you forget who you really are. You eat, sleep, think only them nothing else really matters. But when you finally say “NO, I choose ME this time”. You become the bad guy, that Jekyll and Hyde persona raises its ugly head where crippling, and cancerous actions soon follow. That voice you once had is hinder, cut off, you become the puppet. I know how it feels to be in a sunken place, it’s quick sand to the MIND. Free yourself and know your worth, never allow the next to dictate who YOU really are. TRUST your intuition, love on yourself, grow and manifest the best YOU can be

I am religion

I’ve destroyed familes for centuries, twisting their minds into believing in a “saviour” even causing wars to win in “my name”. I made the rich richer.. The poor STILL poor. Racism, Slavery and FEAR are my bestfriend(s). I just sit back and watch as they argue when they ALL are wrong. If only they would search within”themselves” they’ll find all that they need is self this life is 100% their responsibility.. But instead they pray to me for guidance and direction, that sounds crazy right? But to no avail billions believe in me, I got them brainwashed from birth.

What is love to you? Is it the feeling of being vulnerable, to the point you trust to put your heart into someone else’s hand.? Is it the frequent sexcapades that will keep you blinded to the red flags that scream to you that this relationship isn’t worth the inner g anymore? What is Love? to a baby that only wants to be in his mom’s arms? To be held and hear the soft thump of her heart beat thru her milk filled breast. Is it giving sound advice, but you never seem to take heed to your own words? I say love is patiently waiting to change your tormented thoughts, to see only the good in others despite the broken ribs and blackened eye. Did love make you stay? Love is free like a smile that seem to have miss a strangers face while passing. Love isn’t just a feeling. It is a retained balance, it can be obsessive and it can be neglected. Picking and choosing whomever will be it’s victim for the moment. Love is something we all yearn but don’t seem to really overstand it. It’s constantly confused with lust another 3 headed monster that devours you if you look it straight in the eye. I say love is standing.. Naked in the mirror eye balling every stretch mark (a child bearing tattoo that I will always love to keep.) Excepting, the Cellulite, dimpled ass, saggy breast. Taking in admiring,Not ashamed, free and lovely. Loving every inch flaws and all. I smile because this is most definitely love comfortably …ME

I’ve been on this Spiritual Journey for about 3yrs and counting. Some ppl EXPECT you to stay humble and peaceful at ALL TIMES. I say does the seasons stay the same?. So don’t expect me to be the same. I’m forever evolving and I won’t hesitate to drop my Humble mindset and “get you && whomever else right together” if NEED be. And doing it with a smile 😄. Peace all is well

How are you all FEELING? I hope you’re doing the “inner work” during this time. I notice a lot of people are breaking down, on some social media platforms. They need validation from the masses in order for them to feel important. My question is why are they scared to be “alone”? I seen an article where Kim K and Ye are arguing more frequently. I laughed to myself bc in my opinion, their marriage wasn’t built on love they’re “business partners” putting on a facade. But that’s neither here nor there. But sending peace and stability to you all. Take this time to reevaluate life and what it really means to you.

That wall is there for a reason

If you get too close you’d know to turn around bc you came the wrong way.

That wall keeps things inline

No extras, mishaps or excuses

Safe

That wall exists hoping that ONE DAY someone will eventually come and tear it down.

Mini Rant

Do ppl really realize the meaning of the phrase “RIDE or DIE” when it comes to committed& marriage relationships, like I see a lot of celebs, and memes glorifying a woman and in some cases men that allow the toxic behavior of their partner. Just to say they have someone or my favorite ” that they’re down for them” Why is struggle love cute??? What happened to making sure you’re good mentally, physically, and spiritually? Being that Ride or Die you can literally die (mentally, physically, and spiritually) trying to serve/ cater to their needs and wants but neglecting your very own. I heard stories of black ppl in the past that have endured so much dealing with husbands who have outside children, habits, abusive, toward the family that is there for them. But you have the wife whose family shun them if they decided to leave the husband because of his toxic generational behavior. Instilling fear that she can’t make it without him. (10/10 she can) Now don’t get me wrong I am a strong believer in the thriving Black family. But sometimes if the other person is unbearable then why tolerate them. Yes, history repeats itself, but accountability is needed to change the situation. When you know better you’ll do better

love you long time

What are you sad 4 hunh?
This is what you wanted right
To be left ALONE
The call was sudden
I just feel as if I’m in a dream.
I stalk your page seen the girl JO
Is she your Hoe? I see she is compatible
Jealous ..you know it
Possessive..ain’t ashame to say it
I want you
Soul ties are spells that take over your soul, mind and body
Making you 4get to wash, eat and sleep
Your thirst can only be quenched by
The one you seek.
“Just lemme know that you’re ok”
Hell no I’m not ok.
It’s raining just like that night
A night I choose to always forget
But it is a focal point in this whole collision.
Meditation to bring me back to me.
I need it

Bad Habits

Blocking you completely out
Phone on DND
I see the texts but I refuse to reply
2 days
Te deso
To fill me up
I can feel your kiss on my shoulder blades
Warm, wet and welcoming
What have you done to me?
My soul has never felt this way b4
Yearning and wanting you near
But I’m scared of you and lonely
All at the same damn time
Is it game? Am I another trophy?
Did you study me prior to our collision?
Learning my ways and dislikes
Faking
But that kiss is too intoxicating
For it not to be real
“Are you ok”?
You seemed worried but I’m scared
The wound has healed but it’s possible that it can be reopened
And I dont want to take that chance
But I want you